There's no hopes left for me, i look around and there's no hope left, i think im & always was something weird & which shouldnt be alive like a baby born without nose a monster which was alive with the help of machines to breath, i think it will be easy it will be fast i think it was in my destiny and God always knew i would end up doing this one day as He knew peter would denny him 3 times... something like me couldnt survive for long, yes something because i don't feel as a human and yes as a monster, even when im not depress i feel the same just something out of route which needs to be eliminated, my enemies will cheer and be happy the only thing i feel is for this, but in other hand i'll gain peace one thing i always been after and never found i hope God forgive me.